Happy vs Content

I'm currently at a point in time where I can honestly say things are going well. I'm back in school, a real four year college, taking classes which I enjoy and aren't overwhelmed by (so it's the first week, shh), I still can hardly believe I live where I do, in a very decently sized apartment on the upper east side of Manhattan (borderline Harlem, but technically not by more than a few blocks!) with a bedroom large enough to fit a queen...and whatever else I need as well. Which at the moment is more drawer space, or maybe I just need to utilize that walk in closet a bit more =x

I recently acquired both a new best friend and a new boyfriend. They're both blond and easily excitable, just one of them happens to weigh four pounds and has a passion for pig ears..which almost sounds poetic. I'll let you figure out which is who is what. Huh? Exactly.

There's more, but rather than ramble (...brag) about how awesome my life is, let me get to a point. Hopefully the point. I've taken to describing my current internal feeling as simply 'content'. To me, this sums up everything. By definition, it means to desire no more than what one has and to be satisfied. Not satisfactory, but satisfied. Big difference in my opinion. What comes to mind is going out to eat and experiencing just enough of everything to be full, but not overly so or uncomfortable. Walking away from a dining experience satisfied is one of the best feelings in the world (to me, at least. Let's not forget I AM still a foodie after all),

So I found it somewhat odd that when asked if I was happy, and I replied that I was content, this was seen as a downgrade. In my eyes, happiness is fleeting. It's more of an erratic emotion than a constant feeling. No one can be happy all the time. Or if they are, I want what they're taking. I won't lie, I've certainly said numerous times in the past that I just want to be happy, and is that so much to ask for? I guess I'm now answering my own question that yes, it is. I just want to be content. Fuck it, I'd rather be content.

Happily content works, too.